So a lot of things has happened to me over the last 4 days ... and i woke up this morning with .... well a whole new perspective and a new motivation for life...
Chris broke up with me on saturday morning... "Why deny the inevitable" ... i swear those words will haunt me for awhile, i replay them over and over ... and it still doesn't make sense, but i'm moving on. 5 months and poof its gone, no piece of evidence except the slash in my heart. Theres nothing anyone can do for me, except for me so i'm taking a step up in my life, time for change, time for new ... time to take care of me!
So today i went for a walk with my Mom in the amazing November weather! When i got back home, i had this whole new motivation... i rearranged my room (Still working on the little stuff, but all the 'big' stuff is done!!) and now its time to try out this new lifestyle! I now how room in my room to finally get out my Wii Fit and start to work on that! I'm going to try and go for a walk 1/2hr before i have to go to work, we'll see how that goes for now and if not i'll go out and use Mom's treadmill. I don't know where this motivation came from... but man oh man, i feel totally into this! I'm going shopping for food tomorrow, my dads family, well they eat alot of shit and aren't as adventurous as i am... but i'm gonna try and expand their taste buds... if i can ... thank god ... and if i can't well then i'll just do it myself! I'm going to make myself healthier! Eat better food and get into a routine... with my job, i have the ability to do this ... i am quite excited ... i haven't decided if i should document it or not or what i should do... but i guess we'll see how it goes! I'll keep ya posted!!
<3 Kate